I was asked recently, what’s the current status of your heart? And my response even surprised me. I answered “it’s needy.” The word needy usually provokes negative emotions in me. After all, who wants to be needy?! I’m in a situation here where I’m completely dependent upon the Lord because I haven’t a clue what I’m doing. Perhaps I’m here to pour into people, love on them, encourage them, build them up, speak life, and help the leaders in any way I can as they carry the weight of the many responsibilities of running an FYM team. My prayer is that the Lord will bring rest and restoration to the leaders here and give them fuel to finish strong. But the truth is that I don’t know how to do any of these things…and I know from experience what it looks like when I try to do it in my own strength.
So back to having a needy heart. The past 3 mornings, I’ve found myself praying this prayer, “Lord, I come to you in need of my portion for today. I need your strength, you love, your wisdom, your discernment, and your words. I don’t have it in me to do this.” And lo and behold, each day, I’m discovering that He is enough. It seems like such a simple thing, but we somehow complicate it. God says, “Just ask me.” So even at the cost of feeling completely needy…I continue to ask God each day to supply what I need. He knows better than I do what my needs are. He is my Portion.
This needy heart is learning again to lean into Him. He continues to bring me to this place of complete dependence…it’s like He’s trying to teach me something. 🙂
It sounds like you are handling everything well… taking it straight to the feet of the Father and letting Him lead you. I pray you find rest and strength in Him to do the work He’s called you to Mexico for. He equips the called! I love and miss you roomy. Know you’re covered in prayer from this end! (and I’m sure on all sides too!)
I am praying for you.
Good Bless you, sweetheart. I love you dearly.
The fact that you recognize your need means you are more equipped than ever!!! It’s out of our weakness that He wants to be strong… so stay weak, dear friend!!! You are His vessel of love and care and support… He will fill you and pour you out… all you have to do is be available! Love and miss you!
The fact that you recognize your need means you are more equipped than ever!!! It’s out of our weakness that He wants to be strong… so stay weak, dear friend!!! You are His vessel of love and care and support… He will fill you and pour you out… all you have to do is be available! Love and miss you!
What a simple, beautiful prayer. He is all that we need, and yet we get busy asking for so many other things for ourselves and for others.
I love you and miss you!
That is beautiful. I love it. I have no doubt God will move in powerful ways as you continue to lean on Him for everything – I’m excited you’re down there pouring into the FYM team – they’re amazing and I can’t think of a better person to go love on them than you. Tell them all hi for me!
We love you and miss you here – Gainesville isn’t the same without you!