I was asked recently, what's the current status of your heart?  And my response even surprised me.  I answered "it's needy." The word needy usually provokes negative emotions in me. After all, who wants to be needy?! I'm in a situation here where I'm completely dependent upon the Lord because I haven't a clue what I'm doing. Perhaps I'm here to pour into people, love on them, encourage them, build them up, speak life, and help the leaders in any way I can as they carry the weight of the many responsibilities of running an FYM team. My prayer is that the Lord will bring rest and restoration to the leaders here and give them fuel to finish strong. But the truth is that I don't know how to do any of these things…and I know from experience what it looks like when I try to do it in my own strength.

So back to having a needy heart. The past 3 mornings, I've found myself praying this prayer, "Lord, I come to you in need of my portion for today. I need your strength, you love, your wisdom, your discernment, and your words. I don't have it in me to do this." And lo and behold, each day, I'm discovering that He is enough. It seems like such a simple thing, but we somehow complicate it. God says, "Just ask me." So even at the cost of feeling completely needy…I continue to ask God each day to supply what I need. He knows better than I do what my needs are. He is my Portion.

This needy heart is learning again to lean into Him. He continues to bring me to this place of complete dependence…it's like He's trying to teach me something.  :)